More Complicated and Less Dramatic

“as actual events always are”

To want, really want something

Utterly beyond

Any pretense of control,

Either to effect

The event or to desist

Wishing the event,

To covet what can’t be made

Or pretended to be made

To occur—that’s real longing.

I’ve both scorned what I have sought

And been annoyed without it,

But what can’t be earned,

Scorned, made, mocked, or bought 

I’ve never doubted.